Tuesday, January 31, 2006
hi dere.. bet u ppl didt expect me to post rite?? hehe.. yep.. i too shall contribute n play a role in my part ya(: hmmm realised tat we hav not been blogging much online except melz.. mayb we ar dying down? nope i dun tink so..
well, i tink we haven reali been interacting tat much as we used to be in last yr.. guess is mainly my fault dere.. hav been mixing around wif new friendz tat i already neglect tat u ppl ar the one tat i reali need in the end.. thousands,if not enough, millions of applogies.. i noe it wun help much.. still remb many i did during the ogl camp n orientation.. the way i handle tink.. it juz keep cuming back to me.. i realised tat friendship should be treasured n not to be pushed around.. tat wad i learned from tis incident ya.. guess im not too late to salvage the mistake i did before..
hmm.. i too realise my temper and mentality is getting from back to worse.. sometimes i do hav the mindset tat i dun need u ppl.. i noe im selfish ya.. so i seek for ur forgiveness.. dere so much to tolk abt my actions.. one gd example is the o2 trail tat day.. at tat point of time, when lixin asked me to throw the cup, i dun get it.. why me??? i was sooo pissed at tat time, almost on the verge in flaring up.. i never felt so mad since the inccident when i hav to handle the stupid issues of gradnite wif abraham n jensen.. but when i sat down at i quiet corner, i start to rationalise the reason behind her intention.. i was the last to drink the cup, of coz i should throw the cup.. geee, i so blined by my own anger n hatred tat time.. but all i need is reasoning.. wad i wan to hear is resons, not commands.. tat is probably the reason i n xin hav been quarelling so much.. it very irritating n tired.. im not blaming her, uz tat how cum we can argue so often in a week or even day.. guess i need to learn to compromise at times n stop holding to my point of views..
i believe tat everyone has their strengths n weaknesses.. we need to learn how to look n polish them so they will stand out even more.. well, tat all keeping inside me on wad i tink abt hi-5 so far.. of coz, not to forget the wonderful times we spent together.. staying back till 9pm everydae to study for promos which we end up chit chatting, the slurping game at startbuck coffee, the dae we went marche(tat the 1st time i go), ying, cj n melz b'dae celebration, our countdown on the taxis during new year, the ogl camp n orientation we went through and many other more tings.. all these hav been rooted into me, which is known as living memories. they will flow whereva i go.. yep, our lengend n story will continue to pass on for generations.. on and on..
